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  1. i'm glad to have found this thread. my disability doesnt have any physical limitations, but i'm extremely anti-social. 20 years ago i was diagnosed bi-polar and even though i studied everything i could find out about it, i never realized that i would be this limited. i might leave the house twice a month, any more than that and i become angry, aggressive and generally unpleasant to be around. while i have no trouble being a ******** in gen chat, anything that involves asking for help, is very difficult for me. i avoid groups and have spent millions of credits to make my own light and dark side guilds just so i dont have to talk to people who invite me. its hard to explain to people who dont live with compulsions. the bi-polar tends to make me gravitate to extremes. i cant have just 1 toon, i have to have every class and subclass possible. i cant just go out and level, i have to level every toon 1 level at a time and plan out every step i can possibly forsee. i spend roughly 2 weeks crafting to every 3 days leveling, because every toon has to be in every purple i can craft for that level. while it keeps me busy, small things throw me off. if i find out one of my crafters is missing a schematic, i cant do anything with any of my other character, until i have that schematic. i know this is gonna sound like a bunch of whining to people who dont understand compulsions. i know my case isnt as severe as a bunch of other peoples. i feel for you guys, i really do. it's just nice to know that i'm not the only one that uses the game as an outlet for something therapeutic. the sense of control is both comforting and entertaining.
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