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11.19.2012 , 09:39 AM | #2

This wasn't supposed to happen...
It's what I thought as the light inside me slowly died.
Soon enough I realize the Jedi code doesn't have the answers I search for.
Where is the peace, when you only feel the emotions?
Where is the knowledge, when at a time like this my only ally is the ignorance?
The pieces of the past I've gathered together are mixed.
When have I failed Revan?
And when did he became my fall?


Chapter 1: Let the dream or the illusion live?

...Again. That woman was teaching Revan again. Preparing him for when he will wield a lightsaber.


"Good! You are getting better. However..."

Saber on the floor.

"You have to work a bit more on your speed." Revan, surprised by the attack, fell down and let go of his saber. He got up and said:

"That's unfair Master Arren! I didn't know about that move!"

Master Arren Kae laughed a bit and grinned. Before she could say something, a strict voice came from behind Revan. Arren could recognize that voice anywhere. A strict and cold voice that she wasn't fond of.

"Do you think that every opponents will give you a list of all moves they can do? Revan."

The young man in question, turned around to face his master : "But Master Kreia...!"

But as soon as he saw her blind eyes full of reproach and her cold expression, he couldn't say anything.

"Well?" Because he knew she was right. Frustrated of being without answers and sad of being scolded, Revan said : "No master...That's why I have work hard, even if I'm a genius."

Kreia stared at her padawan for a moment. Even if she was blind and could only 'see' because of the force, it was as if she could see everything through his mind.

"And what have I told you about the 'genius' part? You are a Jedi. Show some humility."

He looked down and muttered : "Sorry Master..."

"Good." She said, ignoring her apprentice's feelings.

In the meanwhile, Master Arren Kae, who was looking at the whole scene, was angry.
There was no need to be so uptight with Revan. He was getting better and now, instead of praising him, Master Kreia ruined the mood with one of her scolding.

"You have now a training session with Master Vandar, I can go." Revan left the room with a somber expression on his face.

Kreia sighed and went back to her work. She had much to do, update one of the Jedi order computer with new knowledge recently found, putting back some Holocrons in the Jedi Archives,...


She could feel someone staring at her with a burning feeling.
The feeling called anger.
This sort of emotions shouldn't be felt by a Jedi, however she knew a certain female Jedi who possessed a very...undisciplined personality. Kreia didn't needed the force to notice that she didn't leave the room and wanted to say something.

"Master Kae...If you do have something to say, please say it. I don't have the time for this sort of nonsense."
Kreia felt Arren's anger grown. She smirked, it was so easy to make that woman angry. She really fail as a Jedi. In every sense possible.

"Nonsense? ! You call 'this' nonsense? ! After ruining your padawan's effort you dare call this nonsense? !" said angrily Arren Kae.

Kreia turned her chair around to face the other master : " Effort? You call this an effort? he can do far more better than this. Praising him has made him arrogant. If he think he can become a Jedi Knight easily, then he is wrong...And it's easy to know where this wrong thought come from."

The long silver haired woman's eyes widen and turned into a glare.

"Are you saying it's my fault?"

Kreia ignored the glare and kept a calm...or more likely, cold expression.
"Don't think I didn't notice your little speech about peace and a galaxy without the Sith." Said bitterly the slightly older Jedi master. She lifted with the force one of the small holocron, made it levitate and looked in its direction.

"Such a thing doesn't exist. As long as Jedi lives, as long as the republic stand tall, there always will be conflicts. Be it within the Jedi order or elsewhere. The live of a Jedi is always of battles, in the name of a peace that we won't know."

She pause and now looked in Arren's direction.

"There always will be Jedi to fight for the Jedi order and Jedi who will fall to the dark side. The Justice we can bring is always for a short moment." She frowned and glared toward Arren.

"What you teach to MY padawan is a pipe dream that will never become reality. You teach him of peace, such a strong word that can shatter at any time to be build back again."

Arren Kae gritted her teeth and moved her hands in anger : "It's not a 'pipe dream' ! I do believe that one day true peace will be established! True enough...maybe we won't be there to see it...But the next generations of the Jedi order will! I'm sure of it!"

Kreia putted down the holocron on the table, frowned even more : "And how can you be so sure? On what is based your theory? Hope?"

Arren's eyes widen.

"Could it be that you...just hope it will become like that? What you said are just pretty words...but if you don't put them into action, they will be meaningless." said Master Kreia.

The silver long haired master tighten her fist.

"A Jedi must believe in more than just mere hope. It's a luxury we can't effort."
She gritted her teeth at the Jedi master historian's words.
"Therefore, I would like that you keep your...'conciliated' teaching for yourself and stop filling Revan's head with them." She turned toward the computer once more and began to work.

A moment passed, until : "I won't give up on it."

She stopped and looked back at Arren Kae. Strangely she wasn't angry anymore, on the contrary, she was rather calm. Kreia raised an eyebrow and asked : "What?"

Arren was now smiling gently, while remembering Revan's words :

I'll try. I'll do my best to change the course of this cursed circle. And someday I'll show Master Arren a world without the Sith. A World at peace where we can understand each other. Where people doesn't need to join the dark side.

I promise!

Then she looked at Kreia with a determined look: "I know there is a certain truth in your words...But if we give up on hope and live only with facts then nothing will be truly achieved! That is what we got and what the Sith doesn't. That is why I believe in Revan's promise. Those weren't the idealistic words of a child...but the words of a future champion of light."

"You know it better more than anyone, right Master Kreia?" asked Arren with a grin.

Kreia's white eyes widen only for a bit.

"That's why you train him this hard and was worried about my teaching ruining his future...In really like Revan like your own son."

Kreia said nothing but her eyes soften a bit at what she said.
But it lasted only for 5 second. She didn't wanted to show anything she felt to that woman.

"Somehow I...really envy you." said softly Arren.

The bond you two share as a master and student...Like a mother and a son...I...
I wish I could have the same with...

Arren Kae shook her head and decided to leave it to that.

"Anyway, please don't be too hard on Revan. He'll be fine. He is the future Hero of the Jedi order after all! I'll guaranty it!"

As Master Arren leaved the room, Master Kreia stared at the door for a moment. Frowned her eyebrows and kept working.

Foolish woman...


I just hope...

That it won't bring us to our doom.