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11.04.2012 , 12:09 AM |
Wow, I have been away for a bit and although I have read most of the stories posted, I still have some catching up to do. Still, they are all quality reading
Introducing my consular, Xareen'alay.
Xareen'alay is the mother of my main characters (Xania and Lilith) and she had to give them up after the jedi council found out that she was pregnant, as jedis are not too keen on relationships and such. What marked Xar the most, was that her former master, someone she trusted, decided to side with the council and she felt betrayed by such decision. She regretfully chose to follow the concil's directive, but also realised that she could no longer bear to stand in their presence as she began to doubt their teachings. As a result, Xar went into a self-imposed exile.
Her solitude comes not just from the exile but also from being denied a family.
Also, the story is set some time after the consular storyline ending as I have not completed it. So, please, forgive any inaccuracies. By all means, if you do have some insight on the consular/Yuon Par relationship, feel free to share
The lone figure stood in the natural stone archway of the icy cavern. There were only a few objects scattered around and a few furs which were used as a makeshift shelter and, although the temperature was higher inside, it was still close to freezing.
Xareen'alay was kneeling down, in the usual manner of meditating jedis and she did not move.
The figure moved closer, quietly, unsure as what to do next.
“You managed to find me, at last” said Xareen'alay
“It was not easy” came the reply with an elderly voice “I wanted to...see you”
Xareen'alay slowly rose to her feet and turned to face her interlocutor, her face showing no sign of emotion.
“You seem...no...feel so empty”
“You feel with the force now, master Yuon?” The reply felt like a slap to the face for Master Yuon Par as she stared at her former padawan. She could feel the void within her former student but there was also a mixture of other emotions and, although Xareen'alay, or Xar, as she was later known, made no show of such emotions, the older jedi could still feel them.
“I came here to see what you had become” said Yuon “and to check if you needed...”
“Help?” Xar interrupted her “And why would I ask you for help?”
The emphasis on the 'you' is what struck Yuon the most. She had been her best student and she was the one responsible for saving her life yet, she could feel her hostility. Master Yuon wondered if that hostility would eventually sever Xar's connection to the jedi order.
“Please Xar, do not let your feelings towards me turn you from what you have always been.”
“Feelings?” Xareen'alay turned away and started to pace slowly around the room “And what exactly do you know about feelings, Master Yuon?”
“You should not...”
“This is exactly what I always heard, over and over.” Xar interjected “No feelings, no love, no hatred, no fear, no this, no that”. She sighed. “In my time spent in exile, there is one thing I came to understand. The Jedi pride themselves on being selfless, always in control, always preaching about the dark side and how feelings lead you down the darker path”
Master Yuon was now fearing that her former student was on a much different path than she used to be.
“Yet...” Xar continued “Jedis are slaves to their own rules. Do you know the Sith code, Master Yuon?”
The older master was struck speechless and, for a long moment, the only noise that could be heard was the wind howling outside.
“They say that the force shall set them free...and I believe it is so”
“Xar, please, don't do this to yourself”
Xareen'alay stopped “Do what to myself? Turn to the dark side?” she chuckled softly “If I stayed in your presence, I would have turned to the dark side a long time ago but my self imposed exile helped me. Solitude brings a resemblance of peace”
Again, silence fell like a blanket of snow.
“What did you expect from this encounter, Master Yuon? Did you really think that I would be so overwhelmed to see you again that I would forget?”
Master Yuon Par had hoped for such an event to happen, she had kept hope for all this time but she was now realising that her hope had no foundations and was crumbling away. “I had hoped that you would...forgive me”
“Forgive you?” Xareen'alay turned to face her “I had the utmost respect for you. Until the day you decided to side with the council”
“You had gone against all the rules of the order, Xar. You...”
“Again you use those rules as a quick way out. Don't you realise that, even if I had been wrong, your support would have meant a lot to me?”
“I...I could not go against the will of the council”
“Of all people, I was hoping for you to understand. Someone like you, who was criticised because of your friendship with a Trandoshan, of your methods that other masters considered strange or out of line, should have...” Xar paused. Yuon could feel the pain within the younger jedi “Maybe, if you had supported me, I would not have lost everything.”
Xareen'alay slowly walked to the center of the icy chamber and knelt down, wanting to resume her meditation and forget past events and lose herself in the solitude of her exile.
“I cannot change the past, Xar.” said Yuon but her former padawan did not reply shattering the last of her hope. She turned around but before leaving, she whispered “I am sorry, Xar”
“It is too late for that, Master Yuon”
And with that final blow, she made her way to the cave's entrance.